my blog ah.
dam kanasai
...
got so many dam posts!!
like 400 +++.
gonna cut down posting alot
so dat by the end of the year it won reach 500
...
hahaa
maybe i should aim lower.. okok 450.
:P
heez
ok 475...
hahaha



anyway, i realised sth.. im dam scared of cars.. i get carsick!! like wth man.. haha.. i feel queasy whenever i step into a car.. kinda ironic, dat cabs no prob and neither bus nor mrt...


anyway, (lol, another anyway:)
MA LENT ME $$$~!!!!!
so happy
can get my crumpler
:P
the dream i'd had... is now a reality!!! haha.. i was alwiz jealous of ppl dat got crumpler.. alwiz wonder what its like to own one.. not really dat good T___T"
wasted.
anyway, i need to pay back by june. so will be v. broke wit building fund and dis too.. rawr. som more need to cough up 30$ for z2h4 :P
GOGO
theres like only 2 ex stereotypers
CHANGE THE NAME!!!
omgosh
..
haha


im eating veggies. they taste dam yuck. idk why, cuz usually i LOVE veggies
... haiz..

so freaky
i had 3 dreams last nite.. just woke up

1st, i went for a walk wit my ma.. we walked for abt an hour, den lied down on the floor..(yes, the floor) the cold, hard, gravel floor.. we looked up at the stars. they were.. like poka dots. actually, the sky was as if sombody digitized it. there were ma ny stars that exploded, one exploded into rainbow colours.. dam DOTS!!!! anw, we walked back home through a garden or sth, and guess what? i saw 2 ppl from chc. ...
dots..


hhaha. 2nd dream. it was some like... place dat dey served high class food.. ok some restaurant.. i dreamt dat val, isma, hilda, twin was there.. tgt wit alot ppl lah. and the dumb thing was dat my mind captured pictures and developed it. idk how to explain. but. its v. scary
=.=

the 3rd is dat my frens were at my house, and.. well. i was cooking vegetables...=.= carrots and sth... like..
NO LINK... O___O""

if only the sky was more beautiful.. my dream would have been alot nicer
anyway, im awake, and feeling like shit now..
its torture.
=.=

haha..
today
was
average.......

acutally i reached sch at 9.30.. but since the period ends at 10.20, (double e maths) i stayed somewhere and stoned for 50 mins
thank GOD for si xuan.. she accompany me. :P though for 5mins only lah. she had class lor. hahaahah.. anyway.. im dam bored.................

gonna sleep le.
tired.
blogging for what? idk. i'll blog less.

haiz
they're so superficial.
... like wth..
anyway

kinda pissed off today
see, i was doing this geog project..
and.. some1 sent me a file.. a file tt its obvious dat not much effort was put in to it, right. like hello, expect me to edit the whole file? is that why you asked me to join your group? so i'll do tt? dream on. heez.

anyway, sorry sherylynn for asking you to compile it, im really bz today.
dead tired. just finished my art hw after like 3 4 hours... zzz
it suckz.. if my cher asks, i'll just say
i spilt paint on it
because i make dat kinda messy effect. den if he ask why so much,
i accidentally split again.
:P
heez.
today got caught in the rain
when i went library.
sian
...
finally returned the dam books.
...
*cough cough*
headache.

oh yes, i still cannot forgive. need to go do qt le.. sayonara.

idk.
i feel so hurt by that...
the service.. the sermon was about forgiveness... and.. well.. i cried alot.. i tried.. but why issit i still cannot forgive.. its like etched into my memory .. i see ppl dat hurt me.. and i'd just want to seek revenge.. take knives and stab them till they die a miserable death..

i want them to feel the same pain i've felt.
... yet tt wldnt ever happen , huh.
haiz...
i hate this..


anyway. im kinda sick today, so nt in sch. both mentally and emotionaly and physically. heez... idk why past few days i like have dis lingering headache.. sian.. like wtf lar...
i hate my life.
i hate everybody
.....
ok i dont...
=.=
haiya
idk lar
...

i never really realised.. i mean..
haiz..
i alwiz took things forgranted.
well.
.....
hhahas
okay..
anyway, ptl for this lesson learnt..
treasure the things you have, and guard them..
for whatever you do not guard, you apparently lose..
i mean seriously, i think pastor preached, that if you don guard your heart, the devil can easily steal you away...cause problems bigger then yourself to arise.... in your life, and tear you to shreds..

well..
i know im not really a v. strong person.. im kinda pampered :Pwell. ok im v. pampered. im an only child, k..
rawr.
but anyway, i mean.. i do love my parents.. and.. i realise.. i've been taking them forgranted.. just because dey alwiz like dat, dosent mean i can heck care.. well.. haiz. i really hate being alone. well.. i feel v.... like a burden has been placed on my shoulders.. but ptl that i can carry it. though im not the best person to..

well.. haiz. today is like the most dejavu day i've had in a while, i mean.. just this week i had a nightmare about a shark in a cave that i panicked in.... but tell you, the scenery in my dream was FANTASTIC! haha... coral lor.. the rocks like.. whoaz.. i love it. but the dream itself v. scary.. in the end, i remember i was sitting in a swimming pool wit my ma, and was about to thank her for everything she's done for me, i rmb i found it hard, then i woke up. don ask me how from shark haven i end up in a swimming pool..... lol... ok lar
thats it for dis rant!
~nigahiga rox
okiezz
nitezz

sian..
im feeling v. hurt now...
haiya
whatever lar..
anyway
what am i doing..

breathing, typing, sitting, coughing. thinking, fiddling, sianing, blogging, relaxing, stoning, pondering, listening, sighing, downloading, watching, looking, seeing, observing, wondering, scratching, feeling miserable....

haiz..
ok .. lame..
whateverzzzzzzz
haiz................................
i feel, that
i cant tell anyone anything anymore
..
im good for nothing now.. :)
forgotten :D
.. after whathappened..
oh well.
ppl can mock......
idk lar.
im
just
abit
O_____O""""
haiz.....

.................................................i've never felt more alone.
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what the f...
haizzz
zzzz
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